Motivation: To "___" or Not to "____"

Its funny, when I officially decided to pursue self-employment, my motivation was two-fold:

- To be financially self-sufficient and to achieve at least moderate wealth
- To be able to do what I want, when I want

The second motivating factor has been a double-edged sword, for sure. If you begin self-employment with the goal of being able to do what you want, when you want - it is safe to assume that you're the type of person who already has a hard time with boundaries, procrastination and timely deliverables.

Therefore, my second motivating factor is also a pretty substantial barrier in achieving my own dreams.

Odd.

Just yesterday, I went to a matinee movie. It was wonderful, liberating and just what I've always wanted to do! However, it took up and unexpected 4 hours of my time. Prime working time. I don't really regret it, because I haven't gone on many daytime excursions since I quit my job last summer and it was a movie I really wanted to see.

But it does make me wonder how can I do whatever I want, when I want if its also going to take away from the very thing that's supposed to financially support me doing whatever I want, whenever I want?

I certainly need to achieve some balance - fortunately for me, the work that I do is endlessly entertaining to me. However, I am going to continue to work towards automation in my daily work. I want to get all of my money working for me such that I actually don't have to work daily if I don't want to. I think my conundrum is caused simply by me not achieving my first motivational goal: complete financial self-sufficiency.

Great Forbes Article: "5 Warning Signs You May Have Entrepreneurialism"

This is the best, comical article on the disease sweeping the nation: Entrepreneurialism Disease. I found this piece to be spot on! Gosh, the constant urge to work for oneself coupled with all of these crippling symptoms really does feel like a disease sometimes! I thought the author showed a great deal of insight. I love that moment when all of things you've been feeling are finally capture perfectly!

I particularly liked this happy quote:

"A natural optimism and a cheery, cooperative personality could, unfortunately, spell entrepreneurial success as you age."

The only cure to ED… start your own business. Plain and simple folks!

Enjoy!

5 Warning Signs You May Have Entrepreneurialism

- Stay Gritty

To Have One Million Dollars

So, my mom and I have been keeping each other motivated to keep on entrepreneur-ing by saying we're going to make one million dollars. Each new investing idea, sales outlet or general business-like epiphany results in some great e-mails back and forth, keeping each other chugging along.

But there's this thought that nags in the back of my mind when I say it. When I say, I want one million dollars. Whenever I type it out or say it out loud, I have to admit that I imagine one million dollars plopping down in my lap. Its not that I want something for nothing or that actually I think one million dollars should or could fall from the sky and be directly deposited by ACH into my back account. Its just that I wonder what it really means to have or earn or make one million dollars.

I think...what counts as a million? What kind of one million dollars?

If mom and I are going to use the power of positive thinking to convince these million dollars to come on by and stay for a while, what is it that I really want? I need to be specific in my goals, here.

Naturally, one million dollars is 1,000,000 one dollar bills. But, really... I've done the retirement calculators online and I know that it takes about 1.5 million for the average American to retire. So, do I want one million dollars or do I want one million in my retirement account now, to earn interest over the next 35 - 40 years? Or do I want one million to spend on additional entrepreneurial goals? Or, it is enough to have one million in net worth? Maybe five hundred thousand in my retirement account and five hundred thousand in my savings/spending accounts.

I don't know what I mean when I say I want one million dollars. How odd is that?

What I do know is that I want to work hard now so that I am comfortable for the rest of my life when the time comes to retire. Even though, I full well know that I'm never going to retire in the sense that I stop earning money and start spending it all.

Maybe I really want about five million dollars...